my midnight prayer

i hope i can graduate smoothly.
i hope this summer will be tight.
i hope i can keep in touch with all the SLC frenz.
i hope moving back to SF is the right thing to do.
i hope rachel and my band will kick ass.
i hope i can find out what the fuck i want to do with my life.
i hope i can quit cigarettes.
i hope i can cut another album.
i hope there will be another movement.
i hope i can get my memoir published.
i hope everything works out with dewey.
i hope my family's okay, health-wise and otherwise.
i hope i can support kevin financially in the future.
i hope i can get the fulbright at some point.
i hope i can learn to speak mandarin at some point.
i hope i can get a dog at some point.
i hope i can get into grad school.
i hope my art will actually get somewhere.
i hope obama will publish a book post-presidency about how he was puppeted by the white man.
i hope rachel and paulina don't run off forever. i'll miss them.
i hope all of the boodaydlez of the world will be okay.
i hope jan brewer chokes on her steak and dies.
i hope my life/sex life/overall quality of life hasn't peaked yet.
i hope all of the dudes who deny their queerness will realize it and do something about it before they die.
i hope this stupid blog entry reaches some diety/dude who can actually do something about it.

THE FUCK ME NEW YEARZ

this was probably the most fucked up new years ever. at least according to three sources who happen to be really close to me. maybe it was the economy? the fact that there was a blue moon that night? whatever it was, hella crazy shit went down.

so, story one:



1. Pewee, Chita, Rev and Yen

They went to the Zion-I show down at club6. yen got hella drunk and started puking everywhere, so the crew had to take her home via rev's mom, who should be driving in at any minute. so they were beginning to cart yen away when pewee fell behind. thats when the pig came. he snatched pewee by the arm and asked her "what business do you have with these girls?" referring to chita and alex, who were white. she said, "they're my FRIENDS, im trying to catch up to them."

THEN the cop pushed her against the wall, an impact from which she bears a dime-sized bruise as of around 3pm today. the cop started patting her down and asked her if she's been drinking, and pewee said, YEAH BUT EVERYONE HAS. (IT WAS FUCKING NEW YEARS). the cop asked her, "do you know what i can ticket you for right now?" Pewee said, "NO, ACTUALLY, WHAT CAN YOU TICKET ME FOR RIGHT NOW?" For there was absolutely nothing she was doing wrong at the moment of her seizure. then the cop said, "ARE YOU GETTING SASSY WITH ME?" and asked for ID. Pewee said, "NO, THATS MY GIRLFRIEND AND MY FRIENDS, CAN YOU PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE?"

So i guess the cop eventually realized how fucked up he was being and left her alone. And what sucks is that Peweee didn't have the chance to copy down his badge number or ANYTHING. it totally reminds me of when i got handled like that in high school.

ANYWAYS,



2. Bree and Senny

They were on BART into the city and flashing their party favors around when this girl starts muggin them. so bree says, "you need to stop hating and get to where we are," and before she knows it, the girl's screaming at her and pulling her hair, and bree socks her in the face. all of bree's friends jump in and in a second, the fighting halts, and they back off of each other.

then some stupid ass street performer hella racialized his audience, which is just wonderful.


3. me

bree called me circa 3 and i was having chest pains. i had to go to the ER where i stayed until around 7 or 8AM getting, EKGs, x-rays, and had a needle sticking out of my arm for a couple hours. HAPPY 2010 YALL

bad flashback

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9vPyzCHgZ88

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QAgRgy1I8hg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KTkW636B8xg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NOQvcMLll4E